Don’t Close Your Eyes by Christopher Collins

(The work of another talented friend.)

As I look into your eyes
I see reflections of the past,
Of loves lost, broken hearts
And tears of despair
What is true love?
You ask the question over and over
In your mind…
What about me? You ask yourself
for no-one ever seems to be around to hear
All the doubt, confusion and pain
Who will ever love me?
Who CAN ever love me?
Self doubt echoes in your mind
Self esteem fades into nothingness
With each failed attempt at happiness
When is it my turn?
Who do I get to be happy?
All the questions falling on deaf ears,
No-one seems to understand
Not really anyway.
Where is that one?
Where is MY love?
Seeking desperately for the love
You are promised by all the warm fuzzy people.
The ones who assure you that one-day,
One-day it will happen to you too.
But it hasn’t
Just more heartache, more pain.
Why does love hurt so much?
Why do I care?
It seems twisted and ironic
Everything that makes you a good person hurts you the worse
You try to change, you put up walls, but now you’re alone.
The pain continues
How do I go on?
How do I keep from going insane?
Every night, lying alone is a reminder
There is nobody.
You miss the warm touch of another’s body next to yours
Holding you
Loving you
If even for a brief moment in time
Is there a point to moving on?
Does it get better?
You pray night after night for the loneliness and pain to fade.
Only to find it wake with you each dawning of each new day You think the thought What if?
What if I did?
Who would miss me, anyway?
Hope.
Hope stops you.
One tiny sliver of hope reminds you
Life must go on.
No matter the pain,
Heartache,
Disappointment
As I look into your eyes I see
The reflection of me
As I look deeper into your eyes I see.
HOPE
As I look into your eyes I see my soul,
with yours
PLEASE DON’T CLOSE YOUR EYES.

(Christopher Collins Copyright July 7, 2010 – This poem was printed with the author’s permission. Please do not use without author’s permission. Feel free to share the blog link.)